Journal Entry: May 16, 2014 I sent this message to my friend during my lunch break: Hi D. I am killing time since I have a 1 hour and 40 min break with no place really to go except the bed bath and beyond across the street, or the sundry shop in the lobby (that … Continue reading Day Two: Can we fix this mess?
married to a sex addict
Day One: How did I get here?
Journal Entry: May 15, 2014 Message to D: I am looking forward to my session today. I have high hopes. Yesterday was a great day even with airports and airplanes. I did fine. My birthday dinner was fabulous, one of my favorite restaurants. We had a rough morning, unfortunately, but B is at a "meeting" … Continue reading Day One: How did I get here?
You can’t always get what you want…
Journal Entry: May 14, 2014 Today is my birthday. Ah, it would have been way too easy to quote THAT song. Other than Facebook and phone calls, I received most of my birthday wishes and presents a few days ago, on Mother’s Day. That’s usually the way it goes in our family when your birthday falls … Continue reading You can’t always get what you want…
And the rest of the weekend went like this
Journal Entry: Mother's Day, May 11, 2014 After zero hours of sleep and with all the pain relievers worn off, what is left is a long ugly cut on my arm covered in dried blood and sixteen big black stitches, and a whole lot of pain. A forever reminder of my husband’s betrayal. We had … Continue reading And the rest of the weekend went like this
I did not leave tonight
Journal Entry: May 10, 2014 "It's not the load that breaks you, it's the way you carry it." -Lena Horne Days have gone by since I have written in my journal. This is not a good sign. I knew this day would arrive eventually. I’m pretty sure it will go down as the second most destructive … Continue reading I did not leave tonight
Building a dream
Journal Entry: May 2, 2014 "God moves in a mysterious way, His wonders to perform. He plants His footsteps in the sea, and rides upon the storm." ~ William Cowper A week before dday, my husband and I decided to purchase a beach house. I have always wanted a house at the coast. You could say … Continue reading Building a dream
I fall apart
Journal Entry: May 1, 2014 It’s a beautiful first of May day, sunny and warm. My birthday is in May and I have always been partial to the month. May and September are my favorites. Although some little blossoms show themselves in March and April, everything blooms in earnest in May. My new therapist’s office … Continue reading I fall apart
I could star in my own reality show
Journal Entry: April 29, 2014 With me being sick, and my friend being super busy with work, most of our communication lately has been via FB email. I have really isolated myself from most everything that was my life “before.” The loneliness can really get to me, especially when the only human I encounter in a … Continue reading I could star in my own reality show
The darkness
Journal Entry: April 27, 2014 “I remained too much inside my head and ended up losing my mind” -Edgar Allen Poe Every day I try and trudge through the monotony of my new existence. Every day I feel the same feelings of despair and loneliness. I am making some progress. Many times I am able … Continue reading The darkness
As it turns out, I am a quitter
Journal Entry: April 25, 2014 It has been a week since my first ‘wives of sex addicts’ group therapy session. I have not really recovered from the last session, but as I said before, I am not a quitter. I decided to give it one more week. I was really sick last week, so that … Continue reading As it turns out, I am a quitter
try not to cry on my rainbow 