Full disclosure. I wrote this title and the first few sentences below, but I don't remember doing it. I sat down to write a post today, and here was this. I was going to write about something different, but after reading blackacre's Post + comments, here I am. Blue Eyes is very aware of my … Continue reading This is bullshit
Rationalization 201
Possibly been sticking my head where it doesn't belong again, and getting my panties in a wad. For those of us who have been in long term marriages, or intimate partnerships, we know it's not all sweetness and light. It's not all romance and sexy time. In fact, it's mostly not about that at all. … Continue reading Rationalization 201
Paradise
Last month we spent nine days in Hawaii. Mostly I wanted to just relax, bask in the sunshine, walk along the beach, devour afternoon snacks by the pool. We didn't have a rental car and weren't near any actual town, just in a resort area, so we stayed put, all nine days. Paradise! Since we … Continue reading Paradise
What if…
What would my life be like right now if I had chosen to walk away from my marriage at discovery of my husband's secret life? Or any time before that? Or, what if he had chosen to walk away at some point, any point. Where would I be right now? As The Shrink once said … Continue reading What if…
It’s tomorrow
Yeah, per how I left yesterday's post, it's tomorrow and I'm dealing with it and I realized how off I am. Discovery day was January 11, 2014. Somehow I thought yesterday was the 11th? Well here in the United States of America TODAY is January 11th. I really only had one D-day. There was a … Continue reading It’s tomorrow
Here’s where it gets sticky
I've written numerous times here of my support of the 12 step program for addicts, especially sex addicts. I have read numerous blog entries over the years from people whose opinion differs from mine. I get it. I have actually never been to a 12 step meeting, of any kind, so why would I think … Continue reading Here’s where it gets sticky
Survival
I remember the day I found out my sister was a cutter. She always did the cutting in private, she hid the wounds and the scars. Her pain was hers and cutting was an outlet to release the pain. I knew she didn't do it for attention. I knew she was suffering an agony I … Continue reading Survival
Circumstantial existence
Ever since I read Walking the Journey's post last month titled I know what I would do. I have been thinking about this concept of whether or not I would want to or be able to tell a friend that their spouse is cheating, or if my friend is the cheater, would I want to, … Continue reading Circumstantial existence
Six countries in 16 days
Enough about addiction recovery and clueless arsehole friends. Back in September I kept asking, begging, Blue Eyes to confirm, or not, whether we were going on a business trip to Europe in October. It was on, then off, then on, then off, finally on.... At the end of the month I ended up furiously booking … Continue reading Six countries in 16 days
Life is too short
I realize I am really just procrastinating because I don't want to drive back into the city. If I leave now, I'll hit traffic, so I'm staying a little longer and finishing this post. But I do have to go back because I have stayed at the beach house so long I am out of … Continue reading Life is too short
