We had to return to Portland for prescription refills and specialty dog food. Since our dogs both had pancreatitis in the past year, it's important we keep their diets regimented, and I was almost out of insulin. This was a simple drive between homes. When we left for the beach house, we had planned to … Continue reading Shelter in place, part 4
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Shelter in place, part 3
Our weather has turned colder with intermittent rain showers and lots of wind. Here’s the last few pictures of those sunny days. Two of my boys on an old ocean highway. A dog’s life Tide pools This is the point where the dog decided he may need to go home and get his daddy. He … Continue reading Shelter in place, part 3
Shelter in place, part 2
Our second and third days of social distancing were equally as beautiful as the first. North End of the two mile stretch of beach our house is on. Lots of rocks and caves on this stretch of beach. In Oregon, the forest meets the beach a lot of the way. There’s a house on the … Continue reading Shelter in place, part 2
Shelter in place, part 1
We feel pretty comfortable sheltering in place at our beach house during these troubled times. When the architect commenced his drawings about six years ago, he dubbed our home, Shelter House, and that’s what it is. With its massive foundation and heated concrete floors, gorgeous 12’ tall storefront windows, yards and yards of pristine cedar … Continue reading Shelter in place, part 1
Strawberry donuts and lalaland
I realize it's been a while since I started writing about our latest couple's therapy session in Los Angeles, which actually happened over two weeks ago. I have one more post to write to finish it up, but first I want to share a little love for the city of angels. And, to let everyone … Continue reading Strawberry donuts and lalaland
Fear of not being loved
During our last therapy appointment Blue Eyes brought up me, my dad, and one of my nieces as examples of people who live honestly and openly without fear and how he wants to emulate our behavior. He wants to be like us. He talked about the things he loves about me and how upon meeting … Continue reading Fear of not being loved
A burning desire
Yep, it’s true. Let that fire inside burn! 🔥 I made it to Japan where triggers abound, but they can’t get me anymore. I’ve built a wall of strength around me. It took a few years, but I won. I’ve already got a bit of jet lag, which usually makes me loopy and somewhat ungrounded, … Continue reading A burning desire
A new level of exhaustion
Looking back on 2019, I had a pretty great ride. There were ups and downs throughout, but by the end of the year, everything seemed to make sense. Not all was fair, no, not fair, but I had metabolized the crazy (meth addict breaking into our house) and the insane (the arbitration verdict) and the … Continue reading A new level of exhaustion
What I’m seeking
When I was in the trauma therapist's office last month, she asked me to think of something that brought me peace. Something I could focus on to calm my breathing and use during somatic healing. Sitting there in the middle of Los Angeles on a sunny 70 degree December afternoon, all I could think about … Continue reading What I’m seeking
What do I want
I'm still counting down the days to trauma therapy... four more. One of the things the trauma therapist asked for was a document explaining what I hoped for our time together. What I want to accomplish. Here's what I sent her. I honestly didn't know what to say. It was difficult to write out how … Continue reading What do I want
