Blue Eyes and I returned this morning from a business trip back east. It was one of those whirlwind situations where he scheduled like 14 meetings a day including all meals with clients. I was semi prepared for this, it’s Blue Eyes after all. But because I’m still kinda melancholy over the loss of my … Continue reading If I died tomorrow
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Why no tears
A bundle of September dahlias from the garden My good friend Dee, appeared on this blog a few times early on, has passed from rectal cancer. I’m normally a very emotional, ugly cry, kind of person when dealing with the death of someone I am close to, and even people I’m not close to, so … Continue reading Why no tears
Seeking happiness, 10 years later
Ten years ago, I wrote this post: https://trynottocryonmyrainbow.com/2015/12/08/seeking-happiness/ The post is pretty much all about The Peacemaker, our younger child, and his bout with depression. I end the post, written in December 2015, with: “On a side note, I would like to feel some literal sunshine on my face… we are drowning here in the … Continue reading Seeking happiness, 10 years later
Sometimes There Are No Hollywood Endings
I hesitated before writing this. Not because the recent news isn’t tragic (it is) but because stories like this carry a weight that doesn’t need to … Sometimes There Are No Hollywood Endings I’m linking this blog post here because I really enjoy reading this man’s words, and I appreciate his perspective in light of … Continue reading Sometimes There Are No Hollywood Endings
Our own worst enemy
This meme was sent to Blue Eyes last week by his sister. The unfortunate thing about having really awful parents, sometimes the wounds are so deep, we simply cannot see that not only haven’t we dealt with the abuse and subsequent fallout, but we are in fact perpetuating the abuse, carrying it forward, and abusing … Continue reading Our own worst enemy
Give me strength
A beautiful October morning in Portland I’m currently sitting on another plane heading down to Los Angeles. Blue Eyes was supposed to be the one on the plane. He was scheduled to be home for the weekend, to spend a little time in his own home, with me and The Peacemaker and his dog. I … Continue reading Give me strength
Trying to shake the sad
When you get a call at night from your east coast son and it is midnight his time, and he starts the conversation with his voice breaking and the words, “I have something really upsetting to share with you…” your mind immediately goes in a bad direction, as it did for me. In a split … Continue reading Trying to shake the sad
