This afternoon we attended our weekly couple's therapy appointment. Things were going pretty well. We were discussing the "new" schedule and how Blue Eyes was generally handling being at work more and having all that responsibility and not having his addiction as a coping mechanism, and his eyes started tearing up and became red rimmed. He … Continue reading And then it all went to s*%t
Month: June 2015
Broken
A few days ago I got a call from our yard maintenance guy. He is an older fellow, maybe 70 and he has injured his knee. He decided he will no longer be able to engage in his retirement "hobby" of yard maintenance for extra money. I am so sad. I'm sad he injured himself, … Continue reading Broken
Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
I haven't checked in on the physical health front for a while, so now is as good a time as any. I started slipping back into old ways and my weight started edging back up to the 190 mark and my fasting blood sugars were on the rise. I have my next doctor appointment the first … Continue reading Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
Liebster Award
I recently received a Liebster Award nomination from Eve at Eve's Strange Applesauce. She states the following reasons for nominating me: "for being so honest about the highs and the lows of her experience and sharing good recipes. Also because she manages to irritate me on some level and feel respect for her at the same … Continue reading Liebster Award
Obliteration of self
For me, self care means taking a moment to stop and appreciate the beauty around me. This past weekend we did a little wine tasting with friends and this gorgeous flower arrangement was on the tasting counter. My goal here is to journal my life... on the blog of me. I try not to do … Continue reading Obliteration of self
Just another love story. Part nine: arriving Japan
Crazy 80's perm hair at Heian Shrine, Kyoto Japan (January 1987) All I wanted to do was collapse into Blue Eyes' arms the moment I arrived at the Osaka airport in late December 1986. I had purchased a cheap round trip student airline ticket with an open ended return (I don't even know if you can do that anymore) and … Continue reading Just another love story. Part nine: arriving Japan
Please stop saying you’re sorry
I need something pretty to go with this not so pretty post. I took this in my cutting garden with my macro lens. The bee's wings are so shiny and beautiful to me. After posting about structure yesterday, Blue Eyes came home from his very long day, which started with a 7:00am 12-step meeting, then numerous … Continue reading Please stop saying you’re sorry
A desperate need for structure
As previously mentioned, a separation period has been discussed. I had suggested starting with three months. When Blue Eyes asked me when I wanted to start the separation I said, "I don't." He seemed confused. I explained to him that when I spoke of a separation, I wanted him to know how I thought it would … Continue reading A desperate need for structure
An afternoon of baking: I wanted my cake, and to eat it too!
Years ago I took a friend to tea at a cute restaurant about an hour's drive from our house. The restaurant is on a working farm, they call it a living history farm, and is in a quaint, old farmhouse. The kind of place you might see a grandma knitting a blanket in her rocker on … Continue reading An afternoon of baking: I wanted my cake, and to eat it too!
try not to cry on my rainbow 