Journal Entry: October 27, 2014 “It’s not the size of the dog in the fight, it’s the size of the fight in the dog.” –Mark Twain I have mentioned before that I have 10 siblings and I adore them all. My parents were married when they were young, had me before they were both 20, … Continue reading Telling my sister
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Stranger things have not happened
Today. I was going to name my post "Stranger things have happened," but you know what? Stranger things have never happened. While we were in Hawaii, my father got a call from my brother's friend saying she had been trying to get ahold of him for a day, but he was not returning her calls or … Continue reading Stranger things have not happened
Unbalanced
Journal Entry: September 8, 2014 We are currently visiting our older son in Montreal for his 23rd birthday. This would be the one that graduated college in May, The Pragmatist. He is living with his girlfriend in Montreal and figuring out what he wants to do for grad school. Thankfully, this son loves to work … Continue reading Unbalanced
Healing hail storm
Journal Entry: August 18, 2014 This week we are in a high desert resort town a few hours from our house. We are gathered for a family reunion of my Dad's kids, there are nine of us total. All with our own families. Everyone is here except my BPD sister. She doesn't do well with … Continue reading Healing hail storm
We told my parents today
Journal Entry: June 13, 2014 We were back in Los Angeles earlier this week for therapy. I received a phone call from my mother regarding my step father's birthday/father's day this coming weekend. I have been making so many excuses for why we have been out of town so much, and why we have been … Continue reading We told my parents today
Joy will burn out the pain.
Journal Entry: May 27, 2014 At the very top of my list of things that give me joy, are my children. Without hesitation, they are the best gifts I have ever been given. I just returned from my older son's college graduation. He will be called The Pragmatist. In the end, The Pragmatist not only … Continue reading Joy will burn out the pain.
Another one bites the dust
Journal Entry: May 20, 2014 Part of our plan after leaving Los Angeles last week was to meet with both my husband’s therapist (here forward called The Quack) and my local therapist, as a couple, to discuss how best to handle our son’s graduation, and our interactions with the in-laws. I honestly never wanted to … Continue reading Another one bites the dust
Day One: How did I get here?
Journal Entry: May 15, 2014 Message to D: I am looking forward to my session today. I have high hopes. Yesterday was a great day even with airports and airplanes. I did fine. My birthday dinner was fabulous, one of my favorite restaurants. We had a rough morning, unfortunately, but B is at a "meeting" … Continue reading Day One: How did I get here?
You can’t always get what you want…
Journal Entry: May 14, 2014 Today is my birthday. Ah, it would have been way too easy to quote THAT song. Other than Facebook and phone calls, I received most of my birthday wishes and presents a few days ago, on Mother’s Day. That’s usually the way it goes in our family when your birthday falls … Continue reading You can’t always get what you want…
And the rest of the weekend went like this
Journal Entry: Mother's Day, May 11, 2014 After zero hours of sleep and with all the pain relievers worn off, what is left is a long ugly cut on my arm covered in dried blood and sixteen big black stitches, and a whole lot of pain. A forever reminder of my husband’s betrayal. We had … Continue reading And the rest of the weekend went like this
try not to cry on my rainbow 