Ten years ago, I wrote this post: https://trynottocryonmyrainbow.com/2015/12/08/seeking-happiness/ The post is pretty much all about The Peacemaker, our younger child, and his bout with depression. I end the post, written in December 2015, with: “On a side note, I would like to feel some literal sunshine on my face… we are drowning here in the … Continue reading Seeking happiness, 10 years later
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On doing less
Although I strive for peace and happy and all that, I do think the above meme is a bit judgy. To this person, busy does not equal peace. Peace = success. But, we all get to decide how busy we want to be. For some people, busy makes them happy, and not busy feels wrong, … Continue reading On doing less
Diabetes update
I ❤️ dahlias After the high A1c number and getting myself the CGM, I decided to try Mounjaro. Honestly guys, there was a day when I refused to take any medication because I could handle this situation without the intervention of prescription drugs. I remember the days when my regimen included a daily vitamin and … Continue reading Diabetes update
The frustration of managing type 2 diabetes
Love my Ojai succulent garden Please excuse me while I expound on the torment that is dealing with adult onset type 2 diabetes. First, I will say that I totally understand that there are much more agonizing illnesses to manage. My 10 year old nephew is 11 weeks into his Leukemia treatment and awaiting a … Continue reading The frustration of managing type 2 diabetes
Back to the Whole30, again
It seems the last time we did the Whole30 was maybe five years ago. I remember it well, very well. The last time we did it, Blue Eyes was hospitalized on Day 27. Funny, not funny. I also did learn a few things about myself after blood work. Although my blood sugars go down (a … Continue reading Back to the Whole30, again
Cheers to 2023! 🥂
I know, it’s cliche, but Happy New Year y’all. Every year is filled with good and bad, happy and sad, births and deaths, love and hate, triumphs and tribulations. I’m wishing everyone more good than bad. All love, no hate. I’m hoping to continue learning valuable lessons about myself and continuing to grow more wise. … Continue reading Cheers to 2023! 🥂
Tired of pretending, Part Four
I spent all day Tuesday (7/20) running around picking up things for my sister who was still safely at the crisis center here in Portland at that point. Again, I didn’t want her spending the night out of a secure facility. I arrived at the crisis center Wednesday morning at about 10:30am. By 11:30am my … Continue reading Tired of pretending, Part Four
A new level of exhaustion
Looking back on 2019, I had a pretty great ride. There were ups and downs throughout, but by the end of the year, everything seemed to make sense. Not all was fair, no, not fair, but I had metabolized the crazy (meth addict breaking into our house) and the insane (the arbitration verdict) and the … Continue reading A new level of exhaustion
What I’m seeking
When I was in the trauma therapist's office last month, she asked me to think of something that brought me peace. Something I could focus on to calm my breathing and use during somatic healing. Sitting there in the middle of Los Angeles on a sunny 70 degree December afternoon, all I could think about … Continue reading What I’m seeking
I did it
I made it through that fucking colonoscopy like a champion. Ha, I am patting myself on the back, obviously, for something thousands of people do every single day without complaining. A routine procedure, if you will. The thing is though, I never realized before how toxic trauma can really be. I never realized simple fears could … Continue reading I did it
try not to cry on my rainbow 