I spent all day Tuesday (7/20) running around picking up things for my sister who was still safely at the crisis center here in Portland at that point. Again, I didn’t want her spending the night out of a secure facility. I arrived at the crisis center Wednesday morning at about 10:30am. By 11:30am my … Continue reading Tired of pretending, Part Four
Looking back on 2019, I had a pretty great ride. There were ups and downs throughout, but by the end of the year, everything seemed to make sense. Not all was fair, no, not fair, but I had metabolized the crazy (meth addict breaking into our house) and the insane (the arbitration verdict) and the … Continue reading A new level of exhaustion
When I was in the trauma therapist's office last month, she asked me to think of something that brought me peace. Something I could focus on to calm my breathing and use during somatic healing. Sitting there in the middle of Los Angeles on a sunny 70 degree December afternoon, all I could think about … Continue reading What I’m seeking
I made it through that fucking colonoscopy like a champion. Ha, I am patting myself on the back, obviously, for something thousands of people do every single day without complaining. A routine procedure, if you will. The thing is though, I never realized before how toxic trauma can really be. I never realized simple fears could … Continue reading I did it
No joke, people. In honor of American Independence Day this weekend and the thousands of pies that will be consumed, here I sit, a chubby ball of sugar (and dare I say it, fat) almost always thinking about eating healthy. I really do love the idea of the Whole30 eating plan. I love everything about … Continue reading Healthy Eating: Plantain Tostadas
I haven't checked in on the physical health front for a while, so now is as good a time as any. I started slipping back into old ways and my weight started edging back up to the 190 mark and my fasting blood sugars were on the rise. I have my next doctor appointment the first … Continue reading Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
In honor of all my amazing blogger friends, followers, and commenters and their wonderful words of guidance and support, I am freeing my mind and my heart today in order to let all the happiness and goodness in and I am taking a long, deep breath and letting everything else go...
"Every day is a new beginning. Take a deep breath, and start again." Ritu Ghatourey Yesterday would have been Day 30 of the Whole30 Program, IF we had stuck to it for thirty days. One of the "rules" of the program is that if you go off the program, you must start over. Well, we did stumble a … Continue reading Accountability Report: let’s regroup
Oh, oops, I can eat pumpkin, I think. Wait, that's not it... I've completed my first week on the Whole30 eating plan. We have enjoyed such delicious home cooked meals as turkey lettuce wraps, cajun shrimp salad, thai halibut curry and on the menu for this weekend is cottage pie with cauliflower mash topping, plantain tostadas … Continue reading Accountability Report: I cheated
We are home. Hallelujah. Traveling is fun, until it isn't. Returning home after a long trip away usually finds me bouncing back and forth between happy exhaustion and anxiety over getting back into a routine. We returned home Thursday night and I must say, I was happy exhausted (no debilitating anxiety this time from returning to … Continue reading Accountability Report. Time to check back in.