It seems the last time we did the Whole30 was maybe five years ago. I remember it well, very well. The last time we did it, Blue Eyes was hospitalized on Day 27. Funny, not funny. I also did learn a few things about myself after blood work. Although my blood sugars go down (a … Continue reading Back to the Whole30, again
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Cheers to 2023! 🥂
I know, it’s cliche, but Happy New Year y’all. Every year is filled with good and bad, happy and sad, births and deaths, love and hate, triumphs and tribulations. I’m wishing everyone more good than bad. All love, no hate. I’m hoping to continue learning valuable lessons about myself and continuing to grow more wise. … Continue reading Cheers to 2023! 🥂
Tired of pretending, Part Four
I spent all day Tuesday (7/20) running around picking up things for my sister who was still safely at the crisis center here in Portland at that point. Again, I didn’t want her spending the night out of a secure facility. I arrived at the crisis center Wednesday morning at about 10:30am. By 11:30am my … Continue reading Tired of pretending, Part Four
A new level of exhaustion
Looking back on 2019, I had a pretty great ride. There were ups and downs throughout, but by the end of the year, everything seemed to make sense. Not all was fair, no, not fair, but I had metabolized the crazy (meth addict breaking into our house) and the insane (the arbitration verdict) and the … Continue reading A new level of exhaustion
What I’m seeking
When I was in the trauma therapist's office last month, she asked me to think of something that brought me peace. Something I could focus on to calm my breathing and use during somatic healing. Sitting there in the middle of Los Angeles on a sunny 70 degree December afternoon, all I could think about … Continue reading What I’m seeking
I did it
I made it through that fucking colonoscopy like a champion. Ha, I am patting myself on the back, obviously, for something thousands of people do every single day without complaining. A routine procedure, if you will. The thing is though, I never realized before how toxic trauma can really be. I never realized simple fears could … Continue reading I did it
Healthy Eating: Plantain Tostadas
No joke, people. In honor of American Independence Day this weekend and the thousands of pies that will be consumed, here I sit, a chubby ball of sugar (and dare I say it, fat) almost always thinking about eating healthy. I really do love the idea of the Whole30 eating plan. I love everything about … Continue reading Healthy Eating: Plantain Tostadas
Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
I haven't checked in on the physical health front for a while, so now is as good a time as any. I started slipping back into old ways and my weight started edging back up to the 190 mark and my fasting blood sugars were on the rise. I have my next doctor appointment the first … Continue reading Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
let it go
In honor of all my amazing blogger friends, followers, and commenters and their wonderful words of guidance and support, I am freeing my mind and my heart today in order to let all the happiness and goodness in and I am taking a long, deep breath and letting everything else go...
Accountability Report: let’s regroup
"Every day is a new beginning. Take a deep breath, and start again." Ritu Ghatourey Yesterday would have been Day 30 of the Whole30 Program, IF we had stuck to it for thirty days. One of the "rules" of the program is that if you go off the program, you must start over. Well, we did stumble a … Continue reading Accountability Report: let’s regroup
try not to cry on my rainbow 