Today is day 18 of my time away. I am contemplating extending my trip by two more weeks. I am wrapped up in a cocoon of healthy thoughts and actions, and I really like it. My blood sugars are normal. My blood pressure is normal. I am six pounds from crossing back over the BMI chart obese category into the merely overweight category. A place I have not been for 25 years. They make it very easy here. The food is all prepared in a healthy, balanced manner and served in a lovely dining room full of mostly energetic, kind, and enthusiastic people wanting to improve. Exercise classes are offered throughout the day that are generally fun, and sometimes ridiculously challenging. The other day as I was whipping two huge ropes against the gym floor as fast and hard as I could during interval training, I felt like I might throw up. I felt like I was on the Biggest Loser. Honestly, I am concerned that when I go home I will not be able to replicate this level of self care. I am not as worried about my being able to keep up the general exercise or eating plan, per se. I am more concerned that the stressors of real life will send me into the same patterns and habits I partook in before, before coming here.
As previously mentioned, I had never experienced even a day of depression before discovery. Since discovery I have struggled with coping. I have let the stress win. Managing stress and taking care of my emotional health will be my biggest challenge when I return to my real life.
Yesterday in a class on mastering emotions, we watched the following Ted Talk by psychologist Guy Winch. It is worth the 17+ minutes of your time, I promise. Dr. Winch is an eloquent speaker informing us or merely reminding us depending on where we are at in healing from wounds and managing life, of how important it is for the health of our bodies, to take care of our minds.
❤ Finally an apology to all my blogger friends out there… I have limited my time on my electronics since I have been here. I don’t carry my phone around with me. I only spend about 30 minutes per day on electronics and sometimes that has to be for work. I miss you all and I will be back in full force when I return home, but for now, I need this break.