These days... I book expensive travel. Simple as that. I used to book travel so that our little family could spend time together. Blue Eyes often was either working away from home or traveled a lot for business when our children were little. For quite a while he was away from home 20-23 days of … Continue reading Guess what I do when I’m really pissed off
Author: CrazyKat1963
Cheap studio apartment for one, please
I sent something very similar to the above to my husband very early on in our healing. I asked him to think before he spoke. A lot of times he didn't speak at all. I did all the talking and it was oh so frustrating. I cried out my truth, my pain, my agony every … Continue reading Cheap studio apartment for one, please
And now, for the good stuff
Earlier this year Blue Eyes received an email announcing Delta Airlines direct service from Portland to London. He mentioned it to me and I was like, cool! London being one of my favorite cities and all. He then said, "hey, you wanna go to Wimbledon..." OMG, I squealed with delight. Even the thought of it … Continue reading And now, for the good stuff
Where to start…
Wow, it's been a while. It's August already. How did that happen? I missed a whole month here on the blog. I have been trying to keep up with the few blogs I follow. Please know that I am here and I feel the pain. I remember all the stages, vividly. I am thrilled and … Continue reading Where to start…
What’s different now
This is NOT a recap post about what is different in my life now versus prior to discovery of my husband's betrayal and secret life. That would be one bloody long post. Been there, done that. No, this is a post about my health. I haven't really posted about my health in a very long … Continue reading What’s different now
Context
I'm still completely enamored with Pink's latest album, Beautiful Trauma. I listen to it often. Many of the songs resonate. I've already written about a couple of her latest songs. Wild Hearts Can't Be Broken, today's song choice, feels particularly poignant these days. Not only is the song a venue for Alecia's amazing vocal talents, but … Continue reading Context
The letter
Two years ago I asked Blue Eyes to write a letter to the other woman as part of his ninth step. For reasons that have been discussed many times on my blog the letter was not and will never be sent to the other woman. I do believe this letter catapulted my healing in a … Continue reading The letter
Days like this
Disclaimer: I took two dance classes and a stretching class this past Saturday, then took two very long walks, and now my right knee is absolutely screaming at me. Exercise is critical to my continued health goals. Damn I HATE being injured and grounded. It pisses me off. So here goes... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eiDiKwbGfIY I'm not sure … Continue reading Days like this
But why?
I've done it again. I have to say this is one of the main reasons I don't follow a lot of blogs. I was reading a blog by a betrayed spouse and I looked down her 'Blogs I read' list (of course this is absolutely 100% my own fault) and noticed multiple blogs written by … Continue reading But why?
Barbies
When I was a little girl my Grandma worked at a Veterans of America thrift shop in Southeast Portland. The store was walking distance to my Grandparent's house (the one where I would garden with my Grandpa John on warm summer days). Grandma Elsie had a cute little tan miniature poodle named Tina that she … Continue reading Barbies
try not to cry on my rainbow 