Ten years ago, I wrote this post: https://trynottocryonmyrainbow.com/2015/12/08/seeking-happiness/ The post is pretty much all about The Peacemaker, our younger child, and his bout with depression. I end the post, written in December 2015, with: “On a side note, I would like to feel some literal sunshine on my face… we are drowning here in the … Continue reading Seeking happiness, 10 years later
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Birthday memories
Okay, I admit it. I’m a bit of a control freak, but also a people pleaser. I thought about it quite a bit and then wrote on here what I was going to do for my birthday. I decided Blue Eyes could come with me, and he did. A few days before my birthday, however, … Continue reading Birthday memories
11:11 and a whole lot more
On the 11th of last month, we hit eleven years since discovery. Unbelievable how quickly the time has flown. Or has it? Some days yes, many, many days, NO! New front door on the Ojai Casa I started this entry last month, but didn’t finish it, so now it includes even more fun family stuff. … Continue reading 11:11 and a whole lot more
Loneliness
All we can hope for is that Blue Eyes’ father feels a little better with us here. It occurred to Pooh and Piglet that they hadn't heard from Eeyore for several days, so they put on their hats and coats and trotted across the Hundred Acre Wood to Eeyore's stick house. Inside the house was … Continue reading Loneliness
A state of shock
My mother in law wasn’t young, and more recently she had become more frail, however, the overwhelming sentiment by every single person upon hearing of her sudden death, is shock and disbelief. I was not the only person who thought she would outlive us all. Her entire life, she was bigger than life. She was … Continue reading A state of shock
Hurts 2B human
"Hope flows awayIf you could spend a day in my shoesYour mind would changeIf you'd known what I've gone throughWe want the same (Yeah, we do)Maybe then you'll understandHow it hurts to be human Oh God, it hurts to be human" Y'all know how much I love Pink and her music and her boldness and … Continue reading Hurts 2B human
Taking the hit
Mingei International Museum, Balboa Park, San Diego, CA I wrote previously about the situation with my youngest brother, The Listener. He worked for us for 17 years. I hired him out of college at 24. I fired him seven months ago. A lot happened in both our lives during the time he worked for our … Continue reading Taking the hit
Toxic People
We went retro this year and used The Peacemaker's first Hanukkiah. Night 6. I am so incredibly blessed to have both my boys home for the holiday season. I absolutely hate that I feel like I need to write this post, on Christmas. I try to write about the happy stuff too, but like Yelp … Continue reading Toxic People
Tired of pretending: Part Three
Even though the internist who prescribed my sister all those meds appears to be a negligent idiot, she did have one good piece of advice for me. She told me to call and speak with my sister's social worker at the crisis center. Never having done this before, I didn't know my sister had a … Continue reading Tired of pretending: Part Three
Tired of pretending: Part One
Thursday, July 22, 2021 (when I started this entry): It’s been one of those weeks. The past 30 hours feels like 30 days… Per usual, I have thought a lot about writing blog entries over the past couple months. I’ve even started a few. But they sit in the queue, unfinished. I’ve written before about … Continue reading Tired of pretending: Part One
try not to cry on my rainbow 