I am in need of some moral support. My health is failing. I am 51 years old. I have a doctor's appointment scheduled for Monday. I have been overweight to some degree or another, most of my life since adolescence. I started my first diet at 14 years old. I had an emergency appendectomy at … Continue reading Can anyone relate?
married to a sex addict
Just another love story. Part two: a summer apart
After writing and mailing the ‘Dear John’ letter to Blue Eyes, it was time for my summer of fun. I procured two jobs right away so that I had money to do what I needed and wanted to do. I had rent and tuition to save up for as well. I entered university with many … Continue reading Just another love story. Part two: a summer apart
Tumbling from the pedestal
We are all imperfect beings, and for some of us, that takes a little getting used to. What I have noticed about myself, and the rest of the people in my life is that many of us strive to be what others perceive as good or “perfect,” we make “appropriate choices,” we are politely social … Continue reading Tumbling from the pedestal
Just another love story. Part one: let’s be friends
As I struggle through this journey of evaluating my relationship with my husband, I’m taking a stroll through our history and trying to relive some of those memories that pulled us together in the first place. I hope it helps me. I was not college bound. No one in my family had gone to college. … Continue reading Just another love story. Part one: let’s be friends
Melancholy Sunday
I finally got a chance to watch the Parenthood series finale. When the Television Show first aired, I was a little disappointed. It was nothing like the movie with all those quirky characters and really funny moments. The TV show was full of beautiful people, with some of the same basic issues, but without the … Continue reading Melancholy Sunday
The year that felt like a lifetime
“Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” –author unknown An excerpt from the Sexaholics Anonymous 90 Days of Meditations (SA 2013) written by a recovering addict: SECRETS REVEAL SICKNESS I'm as … Continue reading The year that felt like a lifetime
And then jet lag happened
“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing … Continue reading And then jet lag happened
A ray of sunshine
I have been inspired by a betrayed spouse blogger and his incredibly happy and positive post today. Anyone reading my blog knows that I was recently in Japan. Japan holds a lot of triggers for me and I still have one more journal entry I wrote in Japan that will be very painful to post... … Continue reading A ray of sunshine
How do I know it isn’t real, part two
Journal Entry, Cont’d: January 15, 2015 The story of Camilla: Winter 2005, Blue Eyes was feeling like shit. His relationship with his family was on a serious downward slide. I was incredibly busy with our kids and my volunteer work. At the time, he was managing four start-up businesses with all the stress that goes … Continue reading How do I know it isn’t real, part two
How do I know it isn’t real, part one
I have been working on this journal entry/post for days now. It has been incredibly difficult for me, and my husband. I suffered numerous bouts of trauma and some self harm while we were in Japan. We are home now and my arm looks like a tiger got it. I hate when I get in that … Continue reading How do I know it isn’t real, part one
try not to cry on my rainbow 