My dahlias are still going strong and bringing me lots of joy! I received the quote below in an inspirational email from the best trauma therapist in the world... at least she is that to me! These words spoke to me. The old me, before discovery, would have wanted to solve all my problems with … Continue reading Down to your heart
You are going to be okay, part one
A very pretty day in the neighborhood WordPress reminded me last weekend that this blog is now six years old. I started writing about nine months into my healing journey. I had been journaling for months and it took quite a while to put all those words into legitimate, readable blog entries. I finally caught … Continue reading You are going to be okay, part one
Surviving 2020
I am honestly so very tired. We are approaching the end of my older son's visit to Oregon. He's been here more than a month and what a month it has been. Having him home, or nearby, has been at times wonderful, and other times exasperating. He's a very social young man. He and his … Continue reading Surviving 2020
Why are people protesting
Portland, Oregon protests (Photo Credit: Beth Nakamura, Oregonian Staff) Below is the comment in its entirety that I didn't post to my June 6th blog entry: https://trynottocryonmyrainbow.com/2020/06/08/the-way-we-look/ I'm also not posting the author's name or link to his blog. I don't think his blog is complementary to mine, in fact, I believe it is quite … Continue reading Why are people protesting
Purging
Since Blue Eyes reconnected with his parents in December, I have not had any contact with them other than the one dinner in Los Angeles. This is a good thing for me. Blue Eyes tells me they are quite often these days sending him messages asking about Portland. They express disgust with what is theoretically … Continue reading Purging
Sunshine on a cloudy day
My zinnias survived the moving van. I lost a couple plants and about 30 blooms, but honestly, that's a drop in the bucket of what is out there. It still looks beautiful. The neighbors did move out. I thought this would mean that our neighborhood would be quieter, but instead, they are fixing up the … Continue reading Sunshine on a cloudy day
Son of a bitch!
It’s a beautiful summer day here in Portland, Oregon. I’m loving my garden. I have a pretty large terraced yard on a hillside and this spring & summer, during Shelter in Place, I’ve devoted many hours to not only my dahlia cutting garden (birthday present to myself, 40+ tubers), but also to weeding and pruning … Continue reading Son of a bitch!
In the time of Covid
Well. It has certainly been a while since I sat down to write a post. More than two months time. I did think shelter in place would mean more time to write and truthfully I do have time to write. I simply haven't been inspired to write. There are lots of topics to write about. … Continue reading In the time of Covid
The way we look
This came across my Instagram last month and it struck me. Made me stop what I was doing and just think. Think about who I am. Think about how I think about myself. How I judge myself for the way I look. I'm 57 years old. I'm aging, it's hard. Things don't bounce back the … Continue reading The way we look
We’re in this together
Huge peony blooms from my cutting garden. I know it’s confusing to some, how or even why I would want to stay partnered with a person who lied and cheated and systematically betrayed me. How to get past the wounds, and why? Why trust? Why knowingly make myself vulnerable to a proven abuser. The question … Continue reading We’re in this together
