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What made me

October 22, 2023October 22, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 4 Comments

The last time I was down in LA, the sister in law cornered me. Her mom used to do this with people. Get them alone and then blast them with venom and hate. Both mother in law and sister in law did this with Blue Eyes regularly. He was an easy target and he never … Continue reading What made me

Give me strength

October 8, 2023October 8, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 2 Comments

A beautiful October morning in Portland I’m currently sitting on another plane heading down to Los Angeles. Blue Eyes was supposed to be the one on the plane. He was scheduled to be home for the weekend, to spend a little time in his own home, with me and The Peacemaker and his dog. I … Continue reading Give me strength

Loneliness

September 22, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 6 Comments

All we can hope for is that Blue Eyes’ father feels a little better with us here. It occurred to Pooh and Piglet that they hadn't heard from Eeyore for several days, so they put on their hats and coats and trotted across the Hundred Acre Wood to Eeyore's stick house. Inside the house was … Continue reading Loneliness

A state of shock

September 21, 2023September 22, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 6 Comments

My mother in law wasn’t young, and more recently she had become more frail, however, the overwhelming sentiment by every single person upon hearing of her sudden death, is shock and disbelief. I was not the only person who thought she would outlive us all. Her entire life, she was bigger than life. She was … Continue reading A state of shock

Taking the hit

May 4, 2023May 4, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 5 Comments

Mingei International Museum, Balboa Park, San Diego, CA I wrote previously about the situation with my youngest brother, The Listener. He worked for us for 17 years. I hired him out of college at 24. I fired him seven months ago. A lot happened in both our lives during the time he worked for our … Continue reading Taking the hit

9 years ago

February 7, 2023February 7, 2023 / CrazyKat1963 / 6 Comments

I received a lovely message from a new commenter "Centered" on my last post and she reminded me that I did not post this year on or around the anniversary of discovery day of my husband's secret life. And you know what? I legitimately forgot the significance of that day, completely. And although this post … Continue reading 9 years ago

A pleasant surprise

January 17, 2022January 17, 2022 / CrazyKat1963 / 7 Comments

In search of a new spot in Hawaii to experience, I honed in on the Hilo side of the Big Island. This would be the wet side! Hilo gets approximately 143 inches of rain on about 236 days per year. Compare that to where I live, Portland, Oregon, which gets maybe 43 inches of rain … Continue reading A pleasant surprise

Travel in the time of covid

January 16, 2022January 16, 2022 / CrazyKat1963 / Leave a comment

As mentioned previously, I had been on a plane since covid surfaced. I flew with my sister, a short flight to Tucson, for her rehab drop off this past July. It went okay. We then had our Hawaii time share booked for October, our mostly annual at this point birthday trip for Blue Eyes and … Continue reading Travel in the time of covid

You should ask for your money back

August 15, 2021 / CrazyKat1963 / 9 Comments

Where are the balkans? We finally did our DNA home kit swab tests and sent them in. We purchased the tests years ago at the same time we purchased them as gifts for my mom and step dad. My father and step mother have since done theirs as well. Honestly, I’m a little surprised by … Continue reading You should ask for your money back

Spring in the time of covid

August 1, 2021August 1, 2021 / CrazyKat1963 / 8 Comments

This post is long overdue. It was in the queue, but I had been too lazy to go through all the photos to make a proper post. However, with the latest family crisis, I decided to look back on a fond memory. One I had intended to share, but never did. In February, The Pragmatist … Continue reading Spring in the time of covid

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