Ten years ago, I wrote this post: https://trynottocryonmyrainbow.com/2015/12/08/seeking-happiness/ The post is pretty much all about The Peacemaker, our younger child, and his bout with depression. I end the post, written in December 2015, with: “On a side note, I would like to feel some literal sunshine on my face… we are drowning here in the … Continue reading Seeking happiness, 10 years later
journaling my life
On doing less
Although I strive for peace and happy and all that, I do think the above meme is a bit judgy. To this person, busy does not equal peace. Peace = success. But, we all get to decide how busy we want to be. For some people, busy makes them happy, and not busy feels wrong, … Continue reading On doing less
Our own worst enemy
This meme was sent to Blue Eyes last week by his sister. The unfortunate thing about having really awful parents, sometimes the wounds are so deep, we simply cannot see that not only haven’t we dealt with the abuse and subsequent fallout, but we are in fact perpetuating the abuse, carrying it forward, and abusing … Continue reading Our own worst enemy
Time marches on
The parental unit. Dad holding their fur baby… a very spoiled 13 year old doodle! It’s been a doozy of a month. I spent a few weeks this summer helping my mom (with dementia) and step dad (cancer) find a decent retirement home. It’s in the neighborhood they have lived in for the past 30 … Continue reading Time marches on
I don’t prefer blondes
But gosh Robert Redford gave me the chills. I just innately felt like he was a good person. So ruggedly handsome he’s the one celebrity that I crossed paths with multiple times in my life. Like everyone, I knew him by sight. He was a little older than my parents, but even when I was … Continue reading I don’t prefer blondes
Signs of emotional exhaustion
Yes, to this: “80% of women don’t cry, scream, or argue when they’re hurting, they go silent. Not because they don’t care, but because they’ve already said everything they needed to say and it changed nothing. Silence is her last language. It’s what she says when she realizes her words have fallen on deaf ears … Continue reading Signs of emotional exhaustion
Explanations or excuses
Pretty beach sunset I have now heard (or seen) this term “neurodivergent” a half dozen times in the past week. Thank you AI It’s one of those phenomena where you have never heard of something before and then BAM! There it is over and over. Sometimes I think it’s just a matter of coincidence. When … Continue reading Explanations or excuses
Diabetes update
I ❤️ dahlias After the high A1c number and getting myself the CGM, I decided to try Mounjaro. Honestly guys, there was a day when I refused to take any medication because I could handle this situation without the intervention of prescription drugs. I remember the days when my regimen included a daily vitamin and … Continue reading Diabetes update
Birthday memories
Okay, I admit it. I’m a bit of a control freak, but also a people pleaser. I thought about it quite a bit and then wrote on here what I was going to do for my birthday. I decided Blue Eyes could come with me, and he did. A few days before my birthday, however, … Continue reading Birthday memories
Mystery 101
Sunrise photo of Mt. Hood from our house courtesy of Blue Eyes We're having a bit of a heat wave here in Ojai so I'm inside working on the book. Actually it's not even noon, and already 92 degrees. The weather has been odd since we arrived last month. One day it was 80 and … Continue reading Mystery 101
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