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I’m okay

February 26, 2019February 26, 2019 / CrazyKat1963 / 14 Comments

Last week I drove to the beach house by myself. Blue Eyes and I were in a bit of a spat regarding a work issue. I had done my share, it was time for him to kick in. He promised me he would, then he didn't. It infuriated me. It was a big deal. I … Continue reading I’m okay

Betrayal doesn’t define me

January 8, 2018January 8, 2018 / CrazyKat1963 / 26 Comments

Although my husband is a diagnosed sex addict, he is also a cheater. When I first found out about his cheating, I had no idea he was a sex addict or that such a thing was even real. There were a lot of revelations on his part over those first few days, and an obvious … Continue reading Betrayal doesn’t define me

What was he thinking

January 16, 2016January 16, 2016 / CrazyKat1963 / 20 Comments

Somehow my exercise playlist on my iPhone disappeared. It probably happened with a recent update. I have always had trouble with iTunes. I had already started up the elliptical when I realized I didn't have a decent playlist to listen to. I set the thing to shuffle. As I was winding down my 35 minute … Continue reading What was he thinking

Worth fighting for

January 14, 2016January 14, 2016 / CrazyKat1963 / 16 Comments

Just about 20 months ago I received trauma therapy in Los Angeles. The particular psychotherapist I visited specializes in working with developmental, relational, and shock trauma. From her website, "she is a specialist in the Sex Addiction-Induced Trauma Model and she is trained to work with the addict, the spouse, and the couple. She is also … Continue reading Worth fighting for

Learning to fly

December 25, 2015December 25, 2015 / CrazyKat1963 / 3 Comments

May your world bring you peace and joy today. ❤

Life is a good teacher and a good friend

December 24, 2015November 27, 2018 / CrazyKat1963 / 7 Comments

On this Christmas Eve day, I wanted to share the words of Pema Chodron. Blue Eyes is on day three of recovery from his hip replacement surgery. He is doing well, but as expected, is in quite a bit of pain. Our boys are off at my parent's house for Christmas Eve, and we are … Continue reading Life is a good teacher and a good friend

I will never tell him I forgive him

December 15, 2015December 17, 2015 / CrazyKat1963 / 32 Comments

I have read a couple betrayed spouse posts recently, as well as an article or two, on the subject of forgiveness. I have also heard the phrase, "I will never forgive him," quite a few times. I am pretty specifically focusing on betrayed spouses forgiving their cheating spouses. Although I have mentioned forgiveness a few times on my … Continue reading I will never tell him I forgive him

Seeking happiness

December 8, 2015December 8, 2015 / CrazyKat1963 / 26 Comments

Even after all I have shared here, I consider this post to be one of the most difficult to write. This blog entry is being prompted by current happenings in our little family, and also by blogs and other articles I have read over the past two years, some as recently as yesterday. Our younger son … Continue reading Seeking happiness

Amends, part two

December 4, 2015December 9, 2015 / CrazyKat1963 / 24 Comments

December 3, 2015 Later that evening... I knew I was going to do what I did, I just really really wished Blue Eyes had taken our discussion in the morning and done more with it. I wish it had mattered enough for him, that he had taken a good look at that step eight amends … Continue reading Amends, part two

Amends, part one

December 4, 2015April 13, 2020 / CrazyKat1963 / 6 Comments

December 3, 2015 And just when you think he gets it... Blue Eyes is working his step nine: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others. (sa.org) Step eight was making the list (I always thought step eight was the making amends step), but step nine … Continue reading Amends, part one

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