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Birthday memories

July 21, 2025July 21, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / Leave a comment

Okay, I admit it. I’m a bit of a control freak, but also a people pleaser. I thought about it quite a bit and then wrote on here what I was going to do for my birthday. I decided Blue Eyes could come with me, and he did. A few days before my birthday, however, … Continue reading Birthday memories

Mystery 101

May 10, 2025July 3, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 2 Comments

Sunrise photo of Mt. Hood from our house courtesy of Blue Eyes We're having a bit of a heat wave here in Ojai so I'm inside working on the book. Actually it's not even noon, and already 92 degrees. The weather has been odd since we arrived last month. One day it was 80 and … Continue reading Mystery 101

The frustration of managing type 2 diabetes

May 2, 2025May 2, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 4 Comments

Love my Ojai succulent garden Please excuse me while I expound on the torment that is dealing with adult onset type 2 diabetes. First, I will say that I totally understand that there are much more agonizing illnesses to manage. My 10 year old nephew is 11 weeks into his Leukemia treatment and awaiting a … Continue reading The frustration of managing type 2 diabetes

Character development

April 28, 2025April 28, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 2 Comments

I'm not a writer, so the idea of writing a book seems like a monstrous task right about now. I have done some outlines (actually, quite a few over the past five years) and am currently working on character development. I'm also reading books in the genre that mine will be in. I have enjoyed … Continue reading Character development

The beautiful Oregon coast

April 25, 2025April 25, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 4 Comments

Shipwreck at Ft. Stevens, near Astoria, Oregon Having just made another road trip south, this time down Hwy. 101 from Arch Cape, I feel the need to post about the beauty of this section of the United States. I grew up in Portland and spent many, many weekends and summers visiting mostly the Lincoln City … Continue reading The beautiful Oregon coast

Trust shouldn’t be a compromise

April 18, 2025April 18, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 4 Comments

From somewhere on the internet I pretty much agree with the above and realizing hindsight is 20/20, I have to say before dday I trusted Blue Eyes with what I consider the big stuff… I trusted he would be faithful, and be there for me when I was going through a hard time, sorta, generally … Continue reading Trust shouldn’t be a compromise

What’s going on

April 17, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / Leave a comment

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6NXnxTNIWkc And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bedJust to get it all out what's in my headAnd I, I am feeling a little peculiar And so I wake in the morning and I step outside And I take a deep breath and I get real high And I scream from the top … Continue reading What’s going on

Actions, not words

April 16, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / Leave a comment

Strangely enough, I’m still trying to get Blue Eyes to stop taking his phone into the bathroom. It was on the boundary list all those years ago. He stopped for a long time, but has been back at it for a while. Why do people even want to have their phone in the bathroom? Beyond … Continue reading Actions, not words

You are going to be okay, part two

April 15, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / 2 Comments

The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, blossoms are popping, it’s spring in Portland. I’m doing some cleaning of the closets and other such spring kinda stuff. Life is not perfect, but it’s good. Eleven years ago today, I was three months into healing from the most shocking revelation, that my husband was a … Continue reading You are going to be okay, part two

I’m a reflection

April 12, 2025April 12, 2025 / CrazyKat1963 / Leave a comment

New artwork for the beach house master bedroom Sometimes I sit and wonder if it’s me. But then I quickly realize it isn’t. I didn’t create this horrid situation in our marriage. I’m not to blame for the bad shit that transpired. It’s a trick and a trap that those of us who care about … Continue reading I’m a reflection

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