I never addressed the video link in my last post. Not sure music needs explaining, everyone has their own interpretation and there in lies part of the great impact of music. Music often resonates deeply for me especially if there are lyrics and they align with my beliefs or experiences. In this case, I used that … Continue reading Sex IS optional, part two
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Sex IS optional, part one
Disclaimer: I love sex BUT I am not an exhibitionist. I am practical. I am mature and thoughtful and respectful. My husband is a sex addict. That complicates things. Also, I am having a very weird and unbalanced week so I will probably share things in this post that I don't normally delve into, eh, … Continue reading Sex IS optional, part one
I will not be robbed of my story
“All sorrows can be borne if you put them in a story or tell a story about them.” Isak Dinesen About six hours ago, we crossed over 15 months since I found out my husband had a decades long secret sex life. The phone call that informed me of his most recent "intermittent" eight year affair is … Continue reading I will not be robbed of my story
“I know how difficult it must be…”
UGH. So what I really wanted to be doing while Blue Eyes is at his weekly Buddhist Meditation Meeting is writing another post about Paris, or even writing a post about how wonderful the recipe turned out that I tried for dinner tonight. The plantain tostadas with chipotle ranchero sauce, cilantro citrus marinated chicken, guacamole, … Continue reading “I know how difficult it must be…”
Confession to make
I write about how honest I am here on my blog, so I am going to make a confession that is a little uncomfortable for me. Sometimes, not very often and I am not sure exactly what in my mood brings this on, I log out of WordPress and I anonymously check cheater blogs. I … Continue reading Confession to make
Caught between
Two days ago I climbed into my beautiful car, slid onto the soft supple leather seat, started the engine--listened to it purr, and backed out of our garage. Not sure if I have ever mentioned how much I love my car. I am not an avid "car person." I have always chosen very practical vehicles. Cars that … Continue reading Caught between
Continuing to purge
Oh, geez. We made it to that Monday morning I was dreading and things aren't much better for me. Maybe I need to get out and get some exercise. I have been so tired lately, but today is the day to get off my ass and work out. Last night we went to a movie with … Continue reading Continuing to purge
Letting go of the dream
Ack. Why are Sundays so difficult for me? Maybe it is because I dread getting back into the weekly routine and I know Monday is right around the corner. Maybe I just hate the fact that we never get enough sleep because Blue Eyes' has a 12-step meeting at 7:00am on Monday mornings and he gets … Continue reading Letting go of the dream
On the plane home
We have had a string of really nice days together, me and Blue Eyes. Sweden was tough, so many triggers, but I do believe I have taken the country back. She no longer owns it. New York and seeing our older son was pretty amazing although it was so bleeping cold, geez with the windchill … Continue reading On the plane home
Needing to vent
Warning: this is just a venting post about how pissed off I am about my husband’s cheating and spending time internationally with “the other woman.” Anyone not interested in a spiteful rant, please pass this post by. If you are a betrayed spouse (or anyone else who enjoys spiteful rants) and somehow it gives you … Continue reading Needing to vent
try not to cry on my rainbow 