I did it. I finished my first oil painting in nearly six years. I completed the actual painting in one day. I prepped the canvas a couple days ago. Before this year, I have never watched TV while painting, but Wimbledon is on and well, to be honest, I am a bit obsessed with men's tennis. … Continue reading Cherry blossoms in July
healing
Sleep is a treasured commodity
The weather has cooled a bit here and the blue sky is covered in clouds. Unfortunately the clouds will not bring the much needed rain to naturally water our parched plants. We haven't had a cloudy day in weeks. It's okay, but rain would be excellent. I have started my cherry blossom painting with my … Continue reading Sleep is a treasured commodity
Revive me
I would say I am a spiritual person, but not a religious one. Today, however, I saw this prayer and it spoke to me. I believe in me, and I know being a happy, healthy functioning member of a much bigger world than the one that revolves inside me alone is a gift I can give. I … Continue reading Revive me
Torn
Best laid plans, and all. For the fourth, we were set to drive up north for the big family picnic and barbecue, and we even drove almost half way there before I realized I had forgotten my medications, which include high blood pressure meds, and birth control pills. Two things I need to take on time. … Continue reading Torn
Oh happy day!
There are a few reasons I am feeling much happier today. First, Blue Eyes and I had a long discussion this afternoon regarding taking a break from couple's counseling. At first he thought we should continue because I seemed to be in a better mood when we left counseling each Tuesday afternoon. After I explained … Continue reading Oh happy day!
Inspiration
I am still trying to master acrylic paints. I have a couple paintings lying around now that are mostly complete. I guess they should be done, but I'm not totally thrilled with a couple aspects of each, so I keep them in a 'hmmm, what am I going to do with you' pile. Today I … Continue reading Inspiration
Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
I haven't checked in on the physical health front for a while, so now is as good a time as any. I started slipping back into old ways and my weight started edging back up to the 190 mark and my fasting blood sugars were on the rise. I have my next doctor appointment the first … Continue reading Accountability Report: Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)
A desperate need for structure
As previously mentioned, a separation period has been discussed. I had suggested starting with three months. When Blue Eyes asked me when I wanted to start the separation I said, "I don't." He seemed confused. I explained to him that when I spoke of a separation, I wanted him to know how I thought it would … Continue reading A desperate need for structure
let it go
In honor of all my amazing blogger friends, followers, and commenters and their wonderful words of guidance and support, I am freeing my mind and my heart today in order to let all the happiness and goodness in and I am taking a long, deep breath and letting everything else go...
I don’t want to be preachy, just understanding, but…
Oh boy, here we go. I don't really have a lot of time right now for blogging. I shouldn't be blogging. I should be up, and moving at the very least. I have my alarm set to get me up out of my chair every hour. Sitting is bad for me/us/people. I actually should be … Continue reading I don’t want to be preachy, just understanding, but…
try not to cry on my rainbow 