Disclaimer: I love sex BUT I am not an exhibitionist. I am practical. I am mature and thoughtful and respectful. My husband is a sex addict. That complicates things. Also, I am having a very weird and unbalanced week so I will probably share things in this post that I don't normally delve into, eh, … Continue reading Sex IS optional, part one
love after addiction
Caught between
Two days ago I climbed into my beautiful car, slid onto the soft supple leather seat, started the engine--listened to it purr, and backed out of our garage. Not sure if I have ever mentioned how much I love my car. I am not an avid "car person." I have always chosen very practical vehicles. Cars that … Continue reading Caught between
Continuing to purge
Oh, geez. We made it to that Monday morning I was dreading and things aren't much better for me. Maybe I need to get out and get some exercise. I have been so tired lately, but today is the day to get off my ass and work out. Last night we went to a movie with … Continue reading Continuing to purge
Letting go of the dream
Ack. Why are Sundays so difficult for me? Maybe it is because I dread getting back into the weekly routine and I know Monday is right around the corner. Maybe I just hate the fact that we never get enough sleep because Blue Eyes' has a 12-step meeting at 7:00am on Monday mornings and he gets … Continue reading Letting go of the dream
Accountability Report. Time to check back in.
We are home. Hallelujah. Traveling is fun, until it isn't. Returning home after a long trip away usually finds me bouncing back and forth between happy exhaustion and anxiety over getting back into a routine. We returned home Thursday night and I must say, I was happy exhausted (no debilitating anxiety this time from returning to … Continue reading Accountability Report. Time to check back in.
I can see the crash, but I cannot stop the train
I want to be this really strong and independent woman again, like I was before dday. But, I can now see that it is going to take more time than I had expected. One of the main reasons I did not travel with my husband on business over the years is because I do not … Continue reading I can see the crash, but I cannot stop the train
A productive conversation
We made it to Amsterdam. When we got off the plane at 7:15am Amsterdam time, 12:15am Salt Lake City time, with no sleep and running on less than five hours from the night before, AND not getting one good night's sleep the entire previous week, I knew I wasn't going to go sightseeing when we … Continue reading A productive conversation
For my own good
It's been a few days since I posted. Not because I have nothing to write about, or even that I haven't had time to be on WP as I have continued reading blogs and thinking about my blog. I have been working on another post for about a week, but I have put that aside … Continue reading For my own good
Cleansing tears
Sunday morning, Blue Eyes made me breakfast and we sat at the table talking about a healthy plan for when we travel. He will have meetings most of the day, some even centering around meals. I will be on my own much of the time and although I will have some work that will need … Continue reading Cleansing tears
Should I thank the flower lady
With it being Valentine’s Day and all… I thought I would join the masses and post something related. I have another post just about ready to go with my first week’s progress on my new healthy living plan and I am feeling great about that and want to post it, but I have been ruminating … Continue reading Should I thank the flower lady
try not to cry on my rainbow 