What is my relationship with S-Anon? Well, basically, I don't have one. In a perfect world my husband would have worked with his therapist, told the therapist the truth about his secret sex life, all of it, and then worked with the therapist on a way to more safely inform me of Blue Eyes' sexual … Continue reading My relationship with s-anon
self care
It will never be about us
I have had numerous conversations lately swirling around the heartbreaking topic of suicide. It's one of those things that seems to happen in waves, but in fact happens all the time, thoughts of it, and the actual act of it. The familiar words of regret from those left behind, family, friends... insisting there was something … Continue reading It will never be about us
I’m baaack
Okay, so anyone else picturing Jack Nicholson? Just me? Moving right along... I think this is the longest break I have taken from blogging since I started this thing 2 1/2 years ago. I wanted to write, I really did, on some days at least, but it seems the entire six weeks of our holiday … Continue reading I’m baaack
Travelogue: North Carolina
I am still working on starting a travel blog, but in the meantime, here I am. This blog seems to encompass my whole life at this point. I left for North Carolina on Saturday, September 3rd and commenced my health quest on Sunday the 4th. The program included a beautiful and brand new contemporary one … Continue reading Travelogue: North Carolina
Forever a work in progress
I have now been here, in my little home away from home, for five full weeks. Did I ever mention that I had never lived on my own before? I went straight from my parents house(s) to college life with roommates, to living with a partner and then to raising a family and building my own home … Continue reading Forever a work in progress
Emotional health
Today is day 18 of my time away. I am contemplating extending my trip by two more weeks. I am wrapped up in a cocoon of healthy thoughts and actions, and I really like it. My blood sugars are normal. My blood pressure is normal. I am six pounds from crossing back over the BMI chart obese … Continue reading Emotional health
I’m here
Since my arrival back east, a few things have happened. I have not looked back. I have not been bored or homesick or sad. I love it here, but I know my time here will come to an end and so I prepare to head back home eventually and enlist a new mindset. I'll embrace it … Continue reading I’m here
I’ve made a lot of excuses
As much as I would love to say I am just pleasantly plump, or a little chubby, I have a lot of fat on my body. I teeter between overweight and obese, per all those handy BMI calculators. For me to give this diabetes control situation a chance, I need to get into the normal … Continue reading I’ve made a lot of excuses
I’m a control freak
Oh, I know I am, a control freak. I am also obsessive compulsive. I won't go into the details, because they are not all that pretty, but I am. Although I think control freak has a pretty negative connotation in our world, I also think my personality has served me well in the healing process. Blue Eyes' … Continue reading I’m a control freak
Complacency
It's been a while since I have been here blogging. I read, and sometimes comment, but writing on my blog is a whole different beast. Some days I feel like I could write ten entries, and then suddenly it feels like weeks go by without the desire, or the time... I am often thinking about blogging because my … Continue reading Complacency
try not to cry on my rainbow 