As much as I would love to say I am just pleasantly plump, or a little chubby, I have a lot of fat on my body. I teeter between overweight and obese, per all those handy BMI calculators. For me to give this diabetes control situation a chance, I need to get into the normal … Continue reading I’ve made a lot of excuses
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I’m a control freak
Oh, I know I am, a control freak. I am also obsessive compulsive. I won't go into the details, because they are not all that pretty, but I am. Although I think control freak has a pretty negative connotation in our world, I also think my personality has served me well in the healing process. Blue Eyes' … Continue reading I’m a control freak
Complacency
It's been a while since I have been here blogging. I read, and sometimes comment, but writing on my blog is a whole different beast. Some days I feel like I could write ten entries, and then suddenly it feels like weeks go by without the desire, or the time... I am often thinking about blogging because my … Continue reading Complacency
Trauma is a bitch
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2X0Zv7kfwU0 I listened to the studio version of this song... "I Don't Wanna Love Somebody Else" by A Great Big World so many times post discovery day I thought I would just die right then and there, listening to that song, crying out those words. Wherever I was, in my office, in my closet, in … Continue reading Trauma is a bitch
I’m saying those words
The words I swore I never wanted to hear again. The words that pissed me off, and confused me, and made me think people just didn't get what I was going through. The words that made me want to scream. Now I'm saying them too. I hear those words coming out of my mouth, and … Continue reading I’m saying those words
Therapy is nice…
So, I think I am at this place. The place where I can get past those horrible, frustrating, triggering, and often times painful moments without more therapy. At least for now. I cancelled my last two therapy appointments. I just wasn't feeling it. But, never say never, right? A couple things I love about the … Continue reading Therapy is nice…
Okay, me too!
I am joining in on Totally Caroline's 100 Things I Love. After reading Owlie's List, I realized I need to do one before I can no longer distinguish my list from everyone else's. I was thinking I could very easily do a list of 100 Places I Love and 100 Things I Love to Eat. So, you … Continue reading Okay, me too!
Travelogue: It’s all about the food, and the company, NOLA
In keeping with yesterday's theme about being grateful for the friends I have made through my blog... I have a story to tell you about a girl named Totally Caroline and a town called New Orleans. In comments back and forth on both our blogs for what might have been months, TC talked about how much she wanted … Continue reading Travelogue: It’s all about the food, and the company, NOLA
I am thankful…
I am thankful for this blog. I am thankful for the fact that writing out my emotions helps me deal with them. I am thankful for the friends I have met through this blog. Those that I cannot touch or see, but that come here for me, and make me feel less alone. I am … Continue reading I am thankful…
A forever reminder
In a hotel room in Paris, I sat bolt upright in bed and gripped my left forearm with my right hand. There was a searing pain there on my arm. Whoa, I thought what the heck is going on. I know I had been having a nightmare, I was sweaty and disoriented, but I couldn't … Continue reading A forever reminder
try not to cry on my rainbow 