When I first saw the above "quote," I immediately thought of my husband. He was the one denying his real story and acting out and rationalizing and compartmentalizing. Denial was his best friend. I do believe he can embrace his own story, every last little sordid detail of it, the good, the bad, the ugly. I … Continue reading Shame
An afternoon of baking: Chocolate Zucchini Cake
This time of year, in our neck of the woods, zucchini are everywhere! They grow so fast and furious when the heat comes on and boy have we had the heat. We have been eating zucchini since May. I have been thinking about making chocolate zucchini cake for a couple weeks now. My mom used to make … Continue reading An afternoon of baking: Chocolate Zucchini Cake
Take me away
Sunday's "take me away" painting, 16" x 20", oil on canvas Not sure why Sundays are so difficult for me, but considering how many times I have written about it, it is a real thing. I am actually looking forward to Mondays these days as we get back on a schedule. Sundays should feel open … Continue reading Take me away
At the end of the day…
I never thought I would be sharing these words. As a matter of fact, 19 months ago I would not have said I had ever been stabbed in the back. But, in fact, I have. I have been lied to and betrayed and left to heal alone by the person I relied on most for safety and security. … Continue reading At the end of the day…
A book report: The Wednesday Group
Calling this a book review sounds too formal and like I somehow have some expertise in this kind of thing, which I don't. So, I will just call it a book report. The book is called: The Wednesday Group, by author: Sylvia True It is a work of fiction and it follows a short timeframe in … Continue reading A book report: The Wednesday Group
Just another love story. Part ten: January in Japan
Early January 1987, I had sort of settled into my Kyoto boarding house. It was lonely and the other boarders weren’t all that friendly. Even though there were other English speakers, there were no other Americans that I could find and so I pretty much kept to myself. I would eventually realize that non-Americans were … Continue reading Just another love story. Part ten: January in Japan
Cherry blossoms in July
I did it. I finished my first oil painting in nearly six years. I completed the actual painting in one day. I prepped the canvas a couple days ago. Before this year, I have never watched TV while painting, but Wimbledon is on and well, to be honest, I am a bit obsessed with men's tennis. … Continue reading Cherry blossoms in July
Sleep is a treasured commodity
The weather has cooled a bit here and the blue sky is covered in clouds. Unfortunately the clouds will not bring the much needed rain to naturally water our parched plants. We haven't had a cloudy day in weeks. It's okay, but rain would be excellent. I have started my cherry blossom painting with my … Continue reading Sleep is a treasured commodity
Revive me
I would say I am a spiritual person, but not a religious one. Today, however, I saw this prayer and it spoke to me. I believe in me, and I know being a happy, healthy functioning member of a much bigger world than the one that revolves inside me alone is a gift I can give. I … Continue reading Revive me
A chance at happily ever after
I'm going to give myself closure on the discussion of Blue Eyes' fifth step. It's time to put the whole thing to bed. As I was nearly done with my blog entry late yesterday afternoon, Blue Eyes returned from his sponsor's house. There was no text when he left the guy's house. Leaving texts or calling … Continue reading A chance at happily ever after
