Photo credit: photoguy777.deviantart.com/art/Pink-Rose A few days ago I was looking for some paperwork I had carelessly tossed somewhere at some point probably as much as two years ago, and in that process I opened the upper left hand drawer of my desk. Inside that drawer is a desperate and depraved accounting of the first few … Continue reading The awakening
wife of a sex addict
The difference between an affair and an addiction
I was just over at Cheater Fantasy's Blog commenting on her post: 'Sex and Love Addiction'. At the end of the post she poses the following question: "How does a sex addict differ from a person who has an affair?" I have thought a great deal about this question over the months, especially as I read other … Continue reading The difference between an affair and an addiction
Protecting my heart
After hours and hours of individual trauma therapy, one of the pivotal pieces of advice I ostensibly came away with was that I needed to take better care of myself. I needed to focus more on what truly makes me a whole person and not focus so much on the needs of others. I had done … Continue reading Protecting my heart
Ocean Waters
'Blue Ocean Waters', 12" x 12", oil on canvas Blue Eyes and I watched an episode of the Netflix series 'Chef's Table' a couple weeks ago. I think we began at the end in that I wanted to specifically watch the story about New Zealand chef Ben Shewry, who now runs the kitchen at Attica Restaurant … Continue reading Ocean Waters
The good news, or the bad news?
What would you like first? Well, I have chosen to go with the bad first. The good will come next. I always choose bad news first, when given a choice. We returned last night from our five day anniversary trip to Victoria, British Columbia. On the trip, a couple of things were obvious. First, I … Continue reading The good news, or the bad news?
26 years
As of about 8:00pm tonight (U.S.-West Coast time), we will have accomplished 26 years of marriage. We were together for nearly five years prior to getting married, so that is a long time to put your faith and trust into one person. You would think the longer a couple is together, the easier marriage would … Continue reading 26 years
Shame
When I first saw the above "quote," I immediately thought of my husband. He was the one denying his real story and acting out and rationalizing and compartmentalizing. Denial was his best friend. I do believe he can embrace his own story, every last little sordid detail of it, the good, the bad, the ugly. I … Continue reading Shame
Take me away
Sunday's "take me away" painting, 16" x 20", oil on canvas Not sure why Sundays are so difficult for me, but considering how many times I have written about it, it is a real thing. I am actually looking forward to Mondays these days as we get back on a schedule. Sundays should feel open … Continue reading Take me away
A book report: The Wednesday Group
Calling this a book review sounds too formal and like I somehow have some expertise in this kind of thing, which I don't. So, I will just call it a book report. The book is called: The Wednesday Group, by author: Sylvia True It is a work of fiction and it follows a short timeframe in … Continue reading A book report: The Wednesday Group
Cherry blossoms in July
I did it. I finished my first oil painting in nearly six years. I completed the actual painting in one day. I prepped the canvas a couple days ago. Before this year, I have never watched TV while painting, but Wimbledon is on and well, to be honest, I am a bit obsessed with men's tennis. … Continue reading Cherry blossoms in July
try not to cry on my rainbow 