Today is day 18 of my time away. I am contemplating extending my trip by two more weeks. I am wrapped up in a cocoon of healthy thoughts and actions, and I really like it. My blood sugars are normal. My blood pressure is normal. I am six pounds from crossing back over the BMI chart obese … Continue reading Emotional health
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I’m here
Since my arrival back east, a few things have happened. I have not looked back. I have not been bored or homesick or sad. I love it here, but I know my time here will come to an end and so I prepare to head back home eventually and enlist a new mindset. I'll embrace it … Continue reading I’m here
I’ve made a lot of excuses
As much as I would love to say I am just pleasantly plump, or a little chubby, I have a lot of fat on my body. I teeter between overweight and obese, per all those handy BMI calculators. For me to give this diabetes control situation a chance, I need to get into the normal … Continue reading I’ve made a lot of excuses
I’m a control freak
Oh, I know I am, a control freak. I am also obsessive compulsive. I won't go into the details, because they are not all that pretty, but I am. Although I think control freak has a pretty negative connotation in our world, I also think my personality has served me well in the healing process. Blue Eyes' … Continue reading I’m a control freak
Complacency
It's been a while since I have been here blogging. I read, and sometimes comment, but writing on my blog is a whole different beast. Some days I feel like I could write ten entries, and then suddenly it feels like weeks go by without the desire, or the time... I am often thinking about blogging because my … Continue reading Complacency
Can it be…
Can it be that it was all so simple then? Or has time rewritten every line? If we had the chance to do it all again Tell me, would we, would we, Could we, could we? No no no, that is not what I meant to write, but as soon as I typed those words, … Continue reading Can it be…
Drum roll please… what’s an accountability report again?
Yesterday was an amazing day. Not only was it Day 30 of our adventure on the Whole30 eating plan, but we also drove to our coastal property and took a good long look at the floor of our flourishing beach house, in 70 degree weather, the second week of February!!! There were families on the beach running and … Continue reading Drum roll please… what’s an accountability report again?
Looking back, just like any other day
I am moving right past the fact that this is it, right now, as I type this, the two year anniversary of the discovery day phone call. Blue Eyes did write me a beautiful and loving thank you note acknowledging that he knows what this day represents to me and that he is grateful for everything … Continue reading Looking back, just like any other day
It warms my heart
Before going to sleep on Saturday eve, Blue Eyes and I checked the weather for both home and the beach property. We are thinking of taking a drive soon to view the progress on the house foundation. I didn't think Blue Eyes was quite ready for the drive on Sunday, so I was mainly looking … Continue reading It warms my heart
I did it
I made it through that fucking colonoscopy like a champion. Ha, I am patting myself on the back, obviously, for something thousands of people do every single day without complaining. A routine procedure, if you will. The thing is though, I never realized before how toxic trauma can really be. I never realized simple fears could … Continue reading I did it
try not to cry on my rainbow 