I’m giving myself permission to feel really shitty today. I’m tired. I’m burnt out. I want more happiness in my life. The tears are welling up in the corners of my eyes right now, threatening to spill over, and it’s okay. My chest is tight. I feel like I want to run away. I’m in … Continue reading It’s okay to feel really bad some days
For the love of road trips, part 4
I should really just call these posts California road trips. Although I have done a lot of road trips outside the west coast, this year has been all about California. That’s okay, because I really like California. I was home for eight weeks, just enough time to experience a freak April snowstorm 😮, finally close … Continue reading For the love of road trips, part 4
I’m not your competition…
It’s been a difficult summer, but I’m still gonna miss it. https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/01/opinion/sunday/why-women-compete-with-each-other.html I read the above NY Times opinion piece a few years ago about why women compete with each other. There's always a lot of talk, when it comes to human behavior, that revolves around natural instincts versus learned behavior. I get that when … Continue reading I’m not your competition…
For the love of road trips, part 3
I spent January in Ojai, California where I found a little mid century bungalow fixer upper to buy as a winter home. I spent February in Ojai solidifying purchase of said bungalow, a hellish experience for sure as the sellers needed to sell, for financial reasons, but one of the sellers really didn't want to … Continue reading For the love of road trips, part 3
Writing it out
Hydrangeas in my neglected garden. Life in my world has become a bit complicated. Our business is in a state of reorganization and growth, that's a good thing, but technically late in the game for us. I now have two rental houses that I am managing mostly as vacation rentals, completely by myself. Our beach … Continue reading Writing it out
For the love of road trips, part 2
Continuing the conversation from back in December.... The Peacemaker and I got up early so we could get in a nice hike before leaving this gorgeous area of California (the redwood forest, not the town of Orick). We actually did 2 hikes that day, in 2 different forests. I’m just so mesmerized by these trees. … Continue reading For the love of road trips, part 2
For the love of road trips, part 1
All those weeks ago (when I started this post it was weeks ago, but those weeks have turned into months) we all left Portland in the middle of a snow event. It sounds like I am running away from our traditional Portland winter, which by the way is nothing like winter in much of the … Continue reading For the love of road trips, part 1
Do you wonder why I run away
This is really a post to my husband. A post out of utter frustration to my 8 1/2 years sober sex addict husband. I would talk to him face to face, but he’s too busy working, at 11:30pm. At diagnosis Blue Eyes acknowledged who and what he was and started on his recovery journey… a … Continue reading Do you wonder why I run away
I’m still in Ojai 🙂
Oil Painting Still Life practice in my little Ojai studio. A visit that was supposed to last a month, is now well into week eight. Blue Eyes visited me for a weekend in January and unfortunately he arrived on the day Thich Nhat Hanh passed, so, much of his time was spent watching footage of … Continue reading I’m still in Ojai 🙂
A pleasant surprise
In search of a new spot in Hawaii to experience, I honed in on the Hilo side of the Big Island. This would be the wet side! Hilo gets approximately 143 inches of rain on about 236 days per year. Compare that to where I live, Portland, Oregon, which gets maybe 43 inches of rain … Continue reading A pleasant surprise
try not to cry on my rainbow 