Arriving JFK I am doing better in terms of my healing. It might be difficult to tell since I have not been writing as much. I love to write, so I am not quite sure why the big breaks from blogging. Perhaps just the nature of the blog. I started it to write out my pain, … Continue reading My day in the big apple
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Note to self
Stay the course! Jackson Lake, Grand Teton National Park, Wyoming Be positive. Stay positive. Don't let the messed up world we live in get me down. Remember my blessings. Always remember to be good and kind. Remember I am unique and my situation is unique and my marriage is unique. I love my husband. He … Continue reading Note to self
Ocean Waters
'Blue Ocean Waters', 12" x 12", oil on canvas Blue Eyes and I watched an episode of the Netflix series 'Chef's Table' a couple weeks ago. I think we began at the end in that I wanted to specifically watch the story about New Zealand chef Ben Shewry, who now runs the kitchen at Attica Restaurant … Continue reading Ocean Waters
The good news, or the bad news?
What would you like first? Well, I have chosen to go with the bad first. The good will come next. I always choose bad news first, when given a choice. We returned last night from our five day anniversary trip to Victoria, British Columbia. On the trip, a couple of things were obvious. First, I … Continue reading The good news, or the bad news?
Just another love story. Part eleven: leaving Japan
Our little love story continued as we snuggled up in our new apartment in Kyoto under Blue Eyes' favorite piece of furniture, the denki kotatsu: a low heated table, about the height of a coffee table with a blanket over the base and a hard wood surface placed on top. It was a particularly cold and snowy … Continue reading Just another love story. Part eleven: leaving Japan
Just another love story. Part ten: January in Japan
Early January 1987, I had sort of settled into my Kyoto boarding house. It was lonely and the other boarders weren’t all that friendly. Even though there were other English speakers, there were no other Americans that I could find and so I pretty much kept to myself. I would eventually realize that non-Americans were … Continue reading Just another love story. Part ten: January in Japan
Inspiration
I am still trying to master acrylic paints. I have a couple paintings lying around now that are mostly complete. I guess they should be done, but I'm not totally thrilled with a couple aspects of each, so I keep them in a 'hmmm, what am I going to do with you' pile. Today I … Continue reading Inspiration
Was I dropped on a planet full of sex crazed monsters?
We’re on another business trip out of town. It’s a short one, but still, there will be triggers. I guess it is inevitable at this point. I do long for a day when I am not blindsided by images I don’t want to see, and thoughts I don’t want to think. I have a lot … Continue reading Was I dropped on a planet full of sex crazed monsters?
Accountability Report. Time to check back in.
We are home. Hallelujah. Traveling is fun, until it isn't. Returning home after a long trip away usually finds me bouncing back and forth between happy exhaustion and anxiety over getting back into a routine. We returned home Thursday night and I must say, I was happy exhausted (no debilitating anxiety this time from returning to … Continue reading Accountability Report. Time to check back in.
On the plane home
We have had a string of really nice days together, me and Blue Eyes. Sweden was tough, so many triggers, but I do believe I have taken the country back. She no longer owns it. New York and seeing our older son was pretty amazing although it was so bleeping cold, geez with the windchill … Continue reading On the plane home
try not to cry on my rainbow 