https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2X0Zv7kfwU0 I listened to the studio version of this song... "I Don't Wanna Love Somebody Else" by A Great Big World so many times post discovery day I thought I would just die right then and there, listening to that song, crying out those words. Wherever I was, in my office, in my closet, in … Continue reading Trauma is a bitch
self care
I’m saying those words
The words I swore I never wanted to hear again. The words that pissed me off, and confused me, and made me think people just didn't get what I was going through. The words that made me want to scream. Now I'm saying them too. I hear those words coming out of my mouth, and … Continue reading I’m saying those words
Therapy is nice…
So, I think I am at this place. The place where I can get past those horrible, frustrating, triggering, and often times painful moments without more therapy. At least for now. I cancelled my last two therapy appointments. I just wasn't feeling it. But, never say never, right? A couple things I love about the … Continue reading Therapy is nice…
Okay, me too!
I am joining in on Totally Caroline's 100 Things I Love. After reading Owlie's List, I realized I need to do one before I can no longer distinguish my list from everyone else's. I was thinking I could very easily do a list of 100 Places I Love and 100 Things I Love to Eat. So, you … Continue reading Okay, me too!
Travelogue: It’s all about the food, and the company, NOLA
In keeping with yesterday's theme about being grateful for the friends I have made through my blog... I have a story to tell you about a girl named Totally Caroline and a town called New Orleans. In comments back and forth on both our blogs for what might have been months, TC talked about how much she wanted … Continue reading Travelogue: It’s all about the food, and the company, NOLA
I am thankful…
I am thankful for this blog. I am thankful for the fact that writing out my emotions helps me deal with them. I am thankful for the friends I have met through this blog. Those that I cannot touch or see, but that come here for me, and make me feel less alone. I am … Continue reading I am thankful…
A forever reminder
In a hotel room in Paris, I sat bolt upright in bed and gripped my left forearm with my right hand. There was a searing pain there on my arm. Whoa, I thought what the heck is going on. I know I had been having a nightmare, I was sweaty and disoriented, but I couldn't … Continue reading A forever reminder
There’s a cost to all the pain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kI0Zye_ewPE I am still sick about the untimely death of Prince. As details emerge, it brings back a lot of the feelings from Michael Jackson's death and the pain and suffering of so many other talented musicians, and actors who died too young, it would seem, from merely trying to medicate their pain. Prince, Whitney … Continue reading There’s a cost to all the pain
Lost identity
In the shower this morning I realized I am having an identity crisis. I have written so much here on my blog. I have spilled out who I am, what has happened to me both before and after I found out about my husband's secret life, how I feel about addiction, how I feel about … Continue reading Lost identity
Hashtag, The Struggle Is Real
I don't know what it is, but I love this crazy saying, hashtag thingy, whatever. The Struggle Is Real. Maybe it is because when people use the hashtag, it is usually in conjunction with something silly, like #FirstWorldProblems, #TheStruggleIsReal, I just ate three boxes of Girl Scout cookies for lunch, type of thing. The other … Continue reading Hashtag, The Struggle Is Real
try not to cry on my rainbow 