Sunday morning, Blue Eyes made me breakfast and we sat at the table talking about a healthy plan for when we travel. He will have meetings most of the day, some even centering around meals. I will be on my own much of the time and although I will have some work that will need … Continue reading Cleansing tears
survival after betrayal
Accountability Report. Week Two
I'm still doing well on my self prescribed health plan, and living high on the power of music again this week. For inspiration to get back on that elliptical after a minor ankle tweak, I changed up my exercise play list, which got me digging around in my music library. I happened upon one of … Continue reading Accountability Report. Week Two
And that would be gaslighting
Monday, February 16, 2015: couple’s therapy Due to traveling schedules, we had not been to see Ms. Second Chance for two weeks. I could barely remember what we talked about last time. I’m pretty sure we left needing to further discuss my thoughts on bringing a period of celibacy back in order for Blue Eyes … Continue reading And that would be gaslighting
Accountability Report. Week One.
One week and one day ago, I posted about my health. I was experiencing some anxiety, chest tightness, indigestion, back pain, high blood sugars, and uncontrolled hypertension. I wasn't watching my diet, and I wasn't exercising. We spend a lot of time on planes, which adds to risk factors for heart attack or stroke. I … Continue reading Accountability Report. Week One.
Should I thank the flower lady
With it being Valentine’s Day and all… I thought I would join the masses and post something related. I have another post just about ready to go with my first week’s progress on my new healthy living plan and I am feeling great about that and want to post it, but I have been ruminating … Continue reading Should I thank the flower lady
The year has come and gone
Like most people, I am on a journey to self awareness, happiness, health, contentment, whatever you want to call it. It's not a race, I don't have to rush it. There is no one destination or result that will mark the completion of this journey, except death. Every day until then, I have the power within myself to improve, … Continue reading The year has come and gone
Melancholy Sunday
I finally got a chance to watch the Parenthood series finale. When the Television Show first aired, I was a little disappointed. It was nothing like the movie with all those quirky characters and really funny moments. The TV show was full of beautiful people, with some of the same basic issues, but without the … Continue reading Melancholy Sunday
The year that felt like a lifetime
“Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” –author unknown An excerpt from the Sexaholics Anonymous 90 Days of Meditations (SA 2013) written by a recovering addict: SECRETS REVEAL SICKNESS I'm as … Continue reading The year that felt like a lifetime
A ray of sunshine
I have been inspired by a betrayed spouse blogger and his incredibly happy and positive post today. Anyone reading my blog knows that I was recently in Japan. Japan holds a lot of triggers for me and I still have one more journal entry I wrote in Japan that will be very painful to post... … Continue reading A ray of sunshine
How do I know it isn’t real, part two
Journal Entry, Cont’d: January 15, 2015 The story of Camilla: Winter 2005, Blue Eyes was feeling like shit. His relationship with his family was on a serious downward slide. I was incredibly busy with our kids and my volunteer work. At the time, he was managing four start-up businesses with all the stress that goes … Continue reading How do I know it isn’t real, part two
try not to cry on my rainbow 