I am honestly so very tired. We are approaching the end of my older son's visit to Oregon. He's been here more than a month and what a month it has been. Having him home, or nearby, has been at times wonderful, and other times exasperating. He's a very social young man. He and his … Continue reading Surviving 2020
love after betrayal
In the time of Covid
Well. It has certainly been a while since I sat down to write a post. More than two months time. I did think shelter in place would mean more time to write and truthfully I do have time to write. I simply haven't been inspired to write. There are lots of topics to write about. … Continue reading In the time of Covid
Dreams come true, part three
The best part of the trip to French Polynesia was our stay at The Four Seasons Resort Bora Bora. We flew from Papeete to Bora Bora and boarded the gorgeous private speed boat shuttle from the airport to the resort. We had the whole boat to ourselves. We arrived the Four Seasons and were escorted … Continue reading Dreams come true, part three
I woke up to nothing, part one
Jack Kornfield said, “At the end of life, our questions are very simple: Did I live fully? Did I love well?” I've always held my husband completely accountable for all the lies, all the cheating, all the betrayal. Forgiveness came fairly easy to me (perhaps too easy). I don't hold hate and resentment in my … Continue reading I woke up to nothing, part one
This is bullshit
Full disclosure. I wrote this title and the first few sentences below, but I don't remember doing it. I sat down to write a post today, and here was this. I was going to write about something different, but after reading blackacre's Post + comments, here I am. Blue Eyes is very aware of my … Continue reading This is bullshit
Here’s where it gets sticky
I've written numerous times here of my support of the 12 step program for addicts, especially sex addicts. I have read numerous blog entries over the years from people whose opinion differs from mine. I get it. I have actually never been to a 12 step meeting, of any kind, so why would I think … Continue reading Here’s where it gets sticky
Complacency
It's been a while since I have been here blogging. I read, and sometimes comment, but writing on my blog is a whole different beast. Some days I feel like I could write ten entries, and then suddenly it feels like weeks go by without the desire, or the time... I am often thinking about blogging because my … Continue reading Complacency
I hope you dance
I spent about a half hour yesterday with a lovely young woman. She's so young in fact that she is younger than my younger son. Her life experiences are minimal. She knows about Blue Eyes and our situation. She knows he is a sex addict and she is so sweet and understanding and compassionate towards … Continue reading I hope you dance
Note to self
Stay the course! Jackson Lake, Grand Teton National Park, Wyoming Be positive. Stay positive. Don't let the messed up world we live in get me down. Remember my blessings. Always remember to be good and kind. Remember I am unique and my situation is unique and my marriage is unique. I love my husband. He … Continue reading Note to self
Love is a precious gift
"The most precious gift you can give to the one you love is your true presence." -Thich Nhat Hanh I cut back on my blog reading and writing, trying to spend less time in front of a computer screen and more time being present with Blue Eyes in the evenings. I have arrived at a … Continue reading Love is a precious gift