We have had a string of really nice days together, me and Blue Eyes. Sweden was tough, so many triggers, but I do believe I have taken the country back. She no longer owns it. New York and seeing our older son was pretty amazing although it was so bleeping cold, geez with the windchill … Continue reading On the plane home
Month: March 2015
Travelogue: Paris past and present (part one)
A picture out the plane window as we leave for Paris Hey, wow, it's been a few days and we have since spent a weekend in Stockholm and then flown to New York City to visit our older son before returning home to our younger son. I wanted to share about our recent trip to … Continue reading Travelogue: Paris past and present (part one)
Needing to vent
Warning: this is just a venting post about how pissed off I am about my husband’s cheating and spending time internationally with “the other woman.” Anyone not interested in a spiteful rant, please pass this post by. If you are a betrayed spouse (or anyone else who enjoys spiteful rants) and somehow it gives you … Continue reading Needing to vent
I can see the crash, but I cannot stop the train
I want to be this really strong and independent woman again, like I was before dday. But, I can now see that it is going to take more time than I had expected. One of the main reasons I did not travel with my husband on business over the years is because I do not … Continue reading I can see the crash, but I cannot stop the train
Travelogue: Amsterdam in early March
Amsterdam: March 8 & 9, 2015 Blue Eyes and I are toying with the idea of starting a travel blog. Just for fun. I decided to practice a bit here on this blog since anyone who reads knows we are currently traveling in Europe. First off, I realize I need to bring my big fancy … Continue reading Travelogue: Amsterdam in early March
A productive conversation
We made it to Amsterdam. When we got off the plane at 7:15am Amsterdam time, 12:15am Salt Lake City time, with no sleep and running on less than five hours from the night before, AND not getting one good night's sleep the entire previous week, I knew I wasn't going to go sightseeing when we … Continue reading A productive conversation
Reconnecting with Blue Eyes… and with the trauma
It has been more than four days since I posted. That's a long time for me. We have been busy. I was delighted to welcome my husband to Salt Lake City. It felt great being back in his arms. We both immediately felt more grounded and whole. This is a good thing. I desperately missed him … Continue reading Reconnecting with Blue Eyes… and with the trauma
Accountability & Archives
Day four, Salt Lake City, Utah, USA Accountability Hey all, I never did post an Accountability Report before leaving home last Saturday. I will post as soon as we return from our travels. Currently I am struggling to get my steps and exercise in, but I am following my healthy eating plan meticulously. I have … Continue reading Accountability & Archives
Too soon
I am on my last day in Salt Lake City without Blue Eyes. I pick him up at the airport tomorrow around lunch time. I have been here since Saturday. It was much more difficult than I could have imagined. Not the seeing my brother and his wife and their little family part. Not the holding … Continue reading Too soon
Just another love story. Part five: learning to compromise
After returning home from the Thanksgiving trip from Hell, we both had to focus on the final few weeks of classes. I tried to forget all about Blue Eyes’ parents, but it was difficult. By the time we hit the end of the term, we had some decisions to make. First, Blue Eyes had started … Continue reading Just another love story. Part five: learning to compromise
try not to cry on my rainbow 